something interesting found its way into my thought train today. it has to do with our rewards in heaven. the bible talks first about gold paved roads and mansions waiting for us. it also talks about our rewards in heaven for the choices we make here on earth whether thats treasure or crowns or a number of things it mentions. first, doesn't that align itself with other religeons that promise things in the afterlife that appeal to us? its unfortunate that its still like a marketing scheme like anything else we experience daily where we're being sold on it; where its still a "what's in it for me" attitude even though it seems otherwise because of the religeous veil. even making sacrifices here on earth is STILL driven by "what's in it for me". it's just derived from a different set of priorities i guess. and what about these treasures that are storing up for us? what is their purpose in heaven? am i going to be less excited than you about being there if my mound isn't as big? what if my mansion is only two stories and you've got a skyscraper? i can't imagine that we live in there...its not like we cook or sleep or watch tv. or maybe we do, i don't know. but i just don't understand why we're promised these symbols that are rather earthly. is it to create jelousy or pride? heaven indicates we won't experience that. is it so that i feel remorse for not having lived as fruitfully as you did? i can't see how God would arrange this for that function either. maybe its dumb to even try to make sense of it. we don't understand God's ways right? so we have to have faith. still sort of bothers me.

last night was fun.

we had some snacks and watched some stuff together in our room. afterward we started listening to some dance music which, as you may have guessed, translated into dancing...which then lead to babies. what do you know, the church was right. hah, i don't even know if that was cool. anyways, we danced our pants off either way. in spencers case i'm speaking quite literally. we danced so much i had to apply deoderant before bed due to sweat. i'm guessing the candy and iced cream had something to do with it.

mid dance we had a great idea. stefan has a luchador libre mask. that means like a mexican wrestler mask except, it reminds me more of the alien species in halo or something. so its actually super creepy. he broke it out and showed us a couple nights ago while in his underwear and we were truly frightened. even now, knowing what it is and not being surprised its still terrifying just because of his mannerisms. i can't even explain it but its so creepy. so we decided that i would lead the parade out into our hallway in our dorm with a laptop playin some beats while the rest of our room danced in our underwear. then stefan would follow us and we'd creep a bunch of people out. all went as planned, and then the people in the hall after they settled down told us to go into a room where they were watching a movie cause it'd be super creepy. sounds great! i bust it in there first with spencer all the way into the heart of the room and then i realize...everyone but one person is asleep. my laptop light glistens on their confused and half unconcious faces. my dance slows quickly as it settles in. i bust it out of there. we sort of debreifed in our room about what just went down and concluded we'd arrange for a formal apology the next day.

this morning i had shovelling duty so i had to get up at like 6:45. it was actually pretty amazing because i felt great this morning. i think my exact words of description to my roomates was, "i'ts a christmas miracle!!" 6 hours of sleep on top of already being worn out and i felt fantastic today.

we used to be the room everyone envied but now people are starting to dislike us because we spend so much time together as a room. so tonite we're hosting a poker game in our room - little dorm party to soften the masses.

we had workday this afternoon. right now i'm in class. we're studying ecclesiastes which interests me. i've never read it but i know what its about. its sort of close to home for me. so i'm gunna go and get into this.