i'm back

'm back, and i'm pretty well settled in.

being home was great. i had a wonderful break but by the end of it i concluded that i was ready to be back in Colorado. i didn't expect to hear that out of my mouth either, trust me. i realized though how quickly i bounced back into routine and many of the habits i had formed by the end of this past summer. its amazing how little things change sometimes when we feel as though they have. i still enjoy my vices i guess but i saw the weight of them more when i was home. i think i began to see an end to that life, that either it would catch up to me or i would catch on to it and make the change. the change i just mentioned gets a bit more complicated because i don't know what that looks like. i still don't think i'm ready to embrace faith as my primary motive for things. not yet. but then what am i looking to do? just don't do bad stuff? treat people good? i dunno. maybe it will lead me back to faith cause maybe that is the answer. i'll figure out a way to be better though. i have too.

i'm still excited about being young. i want to take responsibility for my financial affairs and perhaps some direction for my future. sooner or later i'm gunna slip into my career, but i'm not that eager. in the next year or two i'm sure, but there are still some exciting opportunities i'd love to go after while i still can. more on that as it developes, but i've got an idea or two.

so my trip back here was a bit interesting. got up at like 4:30, made our way to the airport, and then got pulled over at the border but after 10-15 minutes was released with a legit stamp this time. i actually really enjoy travelling alone. you don't have to be looking around constantly for your group or running on someone elses schedule or agenda. you can just do your thing and make sure you're on top of your flight info. get a coffee, grab a mag, people watch, walk around, whatever. everything seems much less stressful. i met up with a few other classmates who were flying out of new york with me back to denver. then in denver i lost my bag. i'm not exactly sure what happened but the dude concluded someone took my bag and would return it soon so they took my info and crap. it arrived the following morning at 2am or something. kind of a nuissance. i've never had that happen to me or a group i've been with before. then i had the priveledge of spending 60 dollars on a shuttle back to school. so between 2 bag checks, food, and shuttle, i spent over a hundred bucks, and 14 hours worth of travel that day.

the following day we spent a couple hours at a staffs house just eating, drinking, and catching up. it was a nice time to socialize without any other agenda. that very afternoon we already had workday. i mean, its kind of understandable because maintanence just had 3 weeks of no help around here, and we had to prepare some things for the group coming in the next night, but people were pretty upset that the day after we get back in we already have a workday. that night we played broomball and then a game of hockey. so broomball you just wear shoes and you use a stick with this plastic tipped thing at the bottom. then its pretty well like hockey. its much more difficult than you think and its funny to watch cause everything looks like its in slow motion. i had two game winning goals. then hockey. i love it. i shouldn't have played cause i was already way overspent physically but i did. that was fun. before that game started though randall fell on his face and got 4 stitches in his chin.

i forgot something else. thursday right before lunch we had a mens class. we usually do some cool stuff for mens class and this was no exception. they took us in our snow gear to a parking lot where there was like a 15-20 foot high drift. it had frozen so it was mostly ice. we were going to play king of the hill. the matchups went by room, and then there was 'dudes with wives' which was just zane and dan. so our room makes it to the finals against dudes with wives. 3 guys in our room are down so i'm wrestling with zane and everything is going well, i was feeling confident. then what seemed innocent enough turned out terrible. zane and i fall over sideways and i land on my exposed ribs on a very stiff mound of ice. i basically went limp and got thrown off. zane didn't realize. i just thought i got the wind knocked out of me or something real bad but it lingered and lingered. jump to current day. when i cough, sneeze, laugh, take a deep breath, bend over/compress my ribs, try to even get up from sitting on the floor, roll over in bed...and on and on...i experience what feels like a spike being driven into my rib just under my armpit. i tried to do a pushup yesterday because our room is doing a real sweet push up challenge and literally shouted as soon as i put the weight on my arms. i think its gotten worse, so i don't know what i've done but it sucks. and there is really no sense in going to the doctor because even if it were cracked or something they can't do anything about it except tell me to stay off it. so that is a huge dampener. i can't snowboard really, i can't play hockey really, and i can't workout.

my new room for this semester is amazing. its Ian, Stefan, Spencer R (dreads), Ryan, and me. the first night back we pulled our matresses off the beds and had a sleepover together on our floor. then yesterday we went shopping together and got all kinds of sweet stuff like hand soap, a bath rug, air fresheners, candy, candles, a dish towel...it was awesome. we have a few other things on the agenda too like glow in the dark stars for our ceiling. we're gunna buy like a thousand and make some gallexys. we're also gunna buy some sweet mountain paintings from the thrift store for our room. there are other items but i'd have ot look at our team shopping list to remember. last night we had another room night where ian baked us these intense cake cookies with icing, and then we watched a movie. we do a lot of room stuff together. its ballin. virtually everyone wants to be in our room.

i'll try to write once or twice a week. when i leave it for too long its hard to remember ad i overlook lots of things. so hopefully i'll improve on my frequency.

good to be back.
and it was good seeing all of you.